You've been gone awhile.
Yes. Yes I have.
What's the story?
Well, you know, sometimes the longer you stay away the harder it is to go back. That's my story anyway.
What makes it hard?
Thinking about it, I suppose. It's best just to do it, rather than think about doing it. Of course, one often has to think in the process of doing, but that's obvious enough. Once you're in that place of thinking about doing something, it can be hard to actually do it. I find this to be true of many things. Some things work best when they are effortless. Which is not to deny that some things require hard work, but there is a distinction to be drawn between trying and doing, between trying hard and working hard. Writing is much harder when I'm trying hard to write. Make sense?
Perhaps.
Sleep too. If I "try" to sleep, there's no way I'm getting to sleep.
And how's that going?
Well, it's interesting...my sleep habits are different than they have been in the recent past. That's for sure. I am often asleep by 2am. Rarely am I awake past 3am anymore.
That is quite a change. What brought it on?
A number of things. Now that time goes so fast, I try not to waste quite so much of it. I'm also trying to adhere to something that at least vaguely resembles a sleep schedule. If I can get to sleep by 2, I can still get a decent night's sleep and be up relatively early. And I'm training a good bit more these days which makes it easier to get to sleep. And good sleep habits aid in recovery. And improved recovery time means more training which means faster improvements. Round and round she goes.
And you aren't quite the barfly you used to be.
No, I'm not. Bars will always have a special place in my heart but I don't spend part of every day in one anymore. Once or twice a week for just a couple hours. That has a lot to do with the training as well.
And does the training impede the writing?
Only insofar as it takes up some of my free time. And mental energy. But it would be disingenuous to claim any real causal relation between training and not writing. I think I've felt like I have some particular sorts of writing to do, and I just needed to start doing it. It's not the usual sort of bloggy crap. Or maybe that's exactly what it is, by most standards. But I've never been too comfortable writing about certain things, and now I think those are things I need to write about. And while I'm happy to share that with certain folks, it's not for public consumption really. So the site is accessible but no one is likely to stumble on it randomly anymore. But it may be that the blog is not the proper vehicle for this, I don't know. We'll see.
