xmas

rarely have I felt so removed from Christmas. Whether holy day or holiday, my attitude this year has been defined by indifference. I used to enjoy both aspects of Christmas. I've never thought of myself as a Christian, but I have always considered the central narrative to be powerful and moving. Even if I could not sign up, I felt its emotional pull. But this year... nothing. And this has made me uncomfortable. But I can affirm one thing. I've always associated Christmas with family and friends. With love. To whatever extent I am capable of it. And that at least has not changed. I know just about everyone who ever reads this, which is good, and I can say honestly that I love all of you. Your friendship makes more of a difference in my life then you will ever know. It sustains me when all else fails and for that I am truly grateful. Merry Christmas.